May In Review: 2019

What was the most memorable part of this past month?

This month is the first month in a very long time where I managed to not drain my bank account, not max out my credit card and save more money than I had budgeted to save. WINNING!!!

What were the three biggest lessons you’ve learned in this past month?

1. I need to take my physical health seriously. After going to many doctors appointments, it is looking like I may be prediabetic. The idea of having Type 2 diabetes scares the shit out of me. I could lose my vision, my fingers, and toes or an entire leg. I’m lucky that I went to my doctors when I did because I still have time to reverse this diagnosis. It’s time that I take this seriously and stop complaining and start doing.
2. I need more help with my mental health. Even though I see a therapist once a week for talk therapy, my anxiety is getting to a level where I might need real help from a psychiatrist. A part of me feels uncomfortable admitting that to the entire world, but at the same time, it is a part of my life, and I need to care for myself.
3. If I want to change my life, I have to change the way I think first. I’m not into this weird movement that young millennials are preaching about, i.e., crystals, manifestation, essential oils, Raci. Let’s be real here; it’s a bunch of bullshit. I could rant about my absolute hatred for that kind of shit, but this isn’t the post for that. However, there has been legitimate research into positive thinking and that’s what I want to do. I’m a pessimist that wants to be an optimist for the sack of a better life.

How are you different between this past month and the month before it?

I’ve noticed that I’m asking myself more questions about my behavior and other peoples behavior towards me. I have been trying to pinpoint a pattern to my behavior towards others (not all bad behavior) and asking myself why I’m behaving that way. I don’t know why I started to do this. It’s just something I’ve noticed in the past month that I haven’t done before.

What or who are you especially grateful for this past month?

I’m grateful for iron pills. In April, I stopped taking all my vitamin supplements because I didn’t feel like they were helping any. The one I should not have stopped taking in my iron pill. This month I noticed how tired I was all the time. I had trouble waking up in the morning even though I had been waking up regularly every day before. Also, my dentist asked me how long I had been anemic, so it had to have been pretty bad for him to notice. After a day or two of taking my iron pill, I was back to my old self.

Name three things you can improve on next month. What are some concrete actions you can take to work towards these improvements?

1. Eating a more balanced diet. I eat way to much sugar and processed food. Although I’ve toned it back in May, I can still do better. I’ve decided to sign up for a diet plan with the Mayo Clinic, which will give me a custom meal plan, progress trackers, and custom workouts. I also plan to use my new treadmill every day to get my 10,000 steps in.
2. For years I’ve craved for a solid routine. I was pretty tired this month, but next month I want to be disciplined in having a routine I can stick to every day. That means waking up, eating meals, working, and cleaning every day at the same time.
3. Even though I did well with my money this month, I want to do even better next month. I already made a budget with Nick for June. I also want to be more mindful of what I’m buying. I’ve found that I’ve purchased a lot of stuff over the years that I didn’t need or have space for and it was just wasteful spending.

From 1-10, how do you feel overall about this past month?

I would have to give May a solid six. There wasn’t anything significant that happened this month, but it wasn’t a bad month either. Just your typical, average month, I guess.

You may have noticed that I didn’t get to writing a review of April. It happens sometimes but you can always catch up and read March’s review if you missed it.